today would have been the day that we would have met "lan lan" or landon. we finally settled on a name. during my last doctor visit my OB had given me an option to have my induction scheduled for today, but of course, i said "no", but she left the option opened just in case i did want to go through with it. one of the reason why i didn't want to do it was that it would have cut my maternity leave short by 2 weeks, plus, i still had things to do. i wanted to see if he would come out naturally as in having my water break on its own. I'm really dreaming though because i've never had my water break with any of my other pregnancies, but hey, it's worth a shot.
he is gaining about 0.5 lbs a week as we speak and it's becoming difficult for me as far as carrying him. i'm going to suck it up for the next two weeks because i know i can probably do it unless he decides to come out sooner. right now, the only risk involved is that i'm carrying a lot of amniotic fluid based on the measurement the sonographer took at my last ultrasound. since baby L is active, there's a possibility he might do some flips and not stay head down. life is about taking risk and i'm willing to take this risk as long as we're not being harmed in any way.
i can't believe i'm going to be a mom to four boys soon! but, let me reassure you and myself that i'm not done having kids. we're planning for one more. it's a true blessing to create life and i look forward to it every single time! the odd thing is that i always forget about the pain involved in labor and being pregnant. once i meet my little man, everything from pain to being a dinosaur gets depleted. speaking of which, i am not looking forward to getting poked! WORST PART EVER!
love my boys. xoxo.
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