BIRTHDAY || LAN LAN TURNS 2!

To my dearest little lan lan .... I'll be back to reflect on life with you these past 2 years. XOXO

BLESSING || me + you

There's something about rainy days. It's very much needed right now in California with the horrendous drought we're currently going through, but it's all within the hands of Mother Nature. It's like life. Some things are controlled and others are uncontrollable, but it's within our own choice, power, pushing, and dreams to determine whether we can make a difference. In 26 weeks, a new addition is set to arrive and whether it is a boy or girl (we're not finding out until the day I deliver), I have a sense of pride and belief that I can get through it with my own strength and struggle. God doesn't make us go through misery in particular to satisfy his wants, but more so to enable us to see him. Perhaps, the constant prayer and meditation sessions has enabled me to focus. For one thing, I'm content those 18 years of growing old with my husband, have matured our relationship but hasn't changed our feelings for each other. We are still in love and laugh as if it was nineteen-nineteen-seven.

Happy Friday - Love my boys. XOXO.

LIVING THE DREAM || Motherhood + Christ

Wow, almost a year and I haven't released some of the entries I've written. I am so honored to be writing my first post of 2015 as I lay in bed sick with the cold. Our house has been infested with the cold bug. 4 came down with it while 3 are standing strong.  As I contemplate about what to write tonight, It seems like yesterday that I was talking about my 5th pregnancy and here I am, pregnant again with our 6th. It has always been a dream for me to be a mother and it's more fulfilling knowing that I am able to conceive and have it come true. I know that if I was unable to ever fulfill this dream, this loss could possibly be frustrating and devastating and that's when my husband comes into play. He constantly reminds me to look into our Lord Jesus Christ and why we go through misery is to be able to see God.

Many always wonder how I do it at times, but I manage our family to thrive like a successful business.  It's the very family I longed to serve by working harder and more efficiently. There is no way I could ever perfect this motherhood journey and it's not a natural gifting either. It's the love. Parenting is one of the hardest jobs that I never knew about until I had my first child. It's definitely no one's forte, but like Papa Dang would say, imitate Jesus Christ and I'll survive. He did save us from the captivity of idleness and redeemed us. The best we can do is to live in his grace and mercy.

Love my boys. XOXO