my labor induction was scheduled for today. i was nervous to meet our son, but more nervous and scared to go into labor as usual. with every pregnancy, delivery has been unique in its own way. i know the labor time would dramatically decrease with each child i have, but the fact that the unexpected is unknown petrifies me. at 5 cm, i requested for an epidural and learned that the anesthesiologist administered what's called a walking epidural, which meant it had a smaller amount of meds versus a regular epidural. basically, it's designed to ease my pain but yet i'm aware of my contractions. when landon was ready to come out, i knew due to the the amount of pressure i felt down there. the upside of having a walking epidural is that i could walk right after labor and went start to restroom to pee. peeing is the first milestone that the nurse wants you to achieve right after you've have a vaginal delivery before they can remove the IV.
with my luck, my doctor had two patients to deliver at the same time. i was the patient on stand-by and since this was my fourth child, i knew that if she didn't come quickly, i would push the baby out. i was told to wait 10 minutes, which turned into 20, and then to 30. by 30 minutes, i basically had enough and my pain tolerance level has reached it's max. i threw "f" bombs for about 5 minutes straight seeking for help, which is unusual of me. so, as you can see, it was PAINFUL. i felt EVERYTHING.i was in tears and yet, my poor husband felt useless. he couldn't do anything but stand by my side and hold my hands. i felt weak in the knee. if the doctor had arrived when i was ready to push, i wouldn't have screamed so loud or sounded so crazy during labor. i'm glad it was a fairly quick delivery. in the end, when i saw landon for the first time, his first breath of air took mine away. i forgot about the pain i felt in that split second. it never amazes me how i can forget so quickly. and for that reason, i can do this all over again.
welcome to our family, little man! i love you.
love my boys. xoxo.
p.s. here's a short clip of me crying. can you feel my pain? i'll post more when i finish uploading the rest.
Chet oi!!! I started crying with you when I watched your video! OMG, if they had this as a sporting event for the Olympics you would totally win a gold medal. Seriously, I think I almost passed out from your video. You're not your cause with trying to convince me to have one. Hands down, you are officially super mom. I now down to you.
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