[day 80] overdue. hello, non-stress test.

it's almost over. the tears slowly dripped down the side of my face when I got into the car with Tony and Evan. i have several issues: (1) separation anxiety from our boys for two days, hopefully, it's just 24-hours again. this is the ONLY time they're away from HOME! (2) i'm no longer going to be pregnant and will meet baby L for the first time. (3) i'm scared of labor and the what if's even though i've gone through this 3 times already. 

since i'm overdue, i had my NSF (non-stress test), it's a 20 minute test where a nurse attached a belt to my abdomen to measure Baby L's heart rate and contraction. surprisingly, i only had 2 contractions that i didn't even feel during that given period. everything came out normal. baby is not distress. also, i had a nice conversation with the nurse who showed me the balloon catheter that would be inserted into my cervix on thursday. to see it in real life, i said, "wow, it looks like one of those long twisting balloon that balloon artist uses." 

also, i decided to change up the nursery this time since we've had the same nursery used by our boys. the only thing i would EVER change previously would be their name on the walls. this time, i knew that i had to use the same color scheme to prevent me from buying any new baby furnitures, which i didn't want to do. i basically added wallpaper, changed the bedding skirt and bumper, added frames, painted the moldings, added all our boys ultrasound pictures to some of the frames, and a new rug. it was quite simple, but a very long process. it's difficult to find the right "EVERYTHING" because i'm so darn picky. i basically took the entire room apart from closet to drawers and reorganized everything the first week i was out on maternity leave. then, papa and i would work on the nursery late at night when we've rested and our boys were asleep. there were nights where we didn't even go to bed until 2 a.m. i love walking into baby l's room right now. 

it's completely spotless and waiting for his arrival! the only thing missing is the letter "L" for the white frame in the center of his crib, which i'll do this week. i also need to clean the blinds to make sure it's dust free when he comes home this week. Yay!

Love my boys. xoxo.