137|365: F.O.M.O.

sometimes i wonder how i manage to commute from OC to LA county daily for work.... the only part that is most enjoyable would probably be the alone time i get in the car to think about random things. today, i thought about the two weeks that i took off to spend time with our boys. it made me miss waking up to them, but especially spending the time with our two youngest during the day. i always feel guilty leaving them and sometimes with the demand of work life, maybe it's time for me to call it quits. i love the flexibility and the work and life balance my company provides me. however, the FOMO "fear of missing out" really hit me hard today and watching them on the camera from work doesn't do justice. it's being with them. i'm thankful i get home early enough to spend time with them and play my mama role. ITS IMPORTANT TO ME. my body feels exhausted, but my mind, heart, and love for our boys keeps me going. i'm going to do a lot of thinking this time around when i leave on maternity leave. i can't predict what the future holds and what my plans are ..........

i just know, my six boys stole my heart. 

love my boys. XOXO.