i'm not going to lie, but i felt like a bad human when i first found out that i was having another boy. we're supposed to be wishing for a healthy baby, but sometimes that doesn't always happen. my husband is the greatest man alive. he kept reassuring me that it's OK and i should be blessed to be carrying another baby. i couldn't even think straight. i cried and cried. seriously, i cried all the way home and had my head down and my hands covering my face. it has always been my dream to have a daughter and i thought that since this is my fifth pregnancy that the odds would be in my favor since we've already had four boys. i always wanted a daughter so i could tie her hair, take her shopping, and help her pick out her wedding gown one day!
BUT ... fast forward, and today, i made the announcement that we're having another boy and feel awesome! i couldn't be more than excited to have another boy join our growing family. maybe, we're having another boy so i could fulfill my husband's dream of having six kids. i know that if we had a girl, i would be done. so, is there a baby #6 in the future? yes, i think so.
i'm always grateful for the many blessing our boys bring into my life. i mean, it could get pretty crazy from time to time, but i couldn't see my life without them. our oldest is turning six in two stinkin' months, which means, i'll be a mom of 5 under six! cray cray, i know! well, i have to admit that i love our boys more than anyone would ever know. each one has a unique personality and has made me a stronger person. i don't know how i do it sometimes, but it's their love that keeps me going. there's not one day that i don't get an "i love you" from them except from lan lan since he's too young but shows love in a different way. no matter how angry they can make me on certain days, they NEVER ever fail to come over to tell me they love me before they head to bed and kiss me good-night. this hasn't failed once. the odd thing is that they'll forget sometimes with papa, but NEVER with me. there's something about a mother and son bond. i hope they never stop loving me and continue to kiss me good-night until the day i die.
SO ..... we asked our kids what they wanted to do today and they said ride a horse. so, off we went to irvine regional park! it was dylan's first time since he normally rides on a pony where he felt the bumpy ride around the course. i caught aiden and dylan talking after their ride:
A: "it was cool, huh, dylan?"
D: "yeah." (laughs)
lan lan did not meet the age requirement and didn't get to ride. i was lucky enough to walk him around while his body attempted to squirm his way out since he likes to be mr. adventurous and crawl everywhere now. evan loved the pony ride and kept massaging the pony's hair. i swear, this kid always make me laugh. it was good that he caught an hour nap in the car before we headed here! another day well spent with my lovelies before we head over to my parents for lunar new year celebration.
love my boys. xoxo.
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